Saturday, January 17, 2009

A lesson in humility

Accepting help has always been a problem for me.  I think I need to do it myself; I want to do it myself.  But this life isn’t about doing it by yourself.  We need help.  We have a Savior who can do what we alone cannot do.  As I struggled with the idea of letting others come to my house and help me de junk and organize and catch up on what I have fallen behind on, I realized I needed help although I wasn’t so anxious for the help.  It is that way with the Savior he is willing to bear our burdens if we will let him.  How hard it is to give up our weaknesses to him so that he might help us find strength.  Letting others be aware of my weaknesses and shortcomings is quite humbling and scary.  Humbling in that I know I can’t face this trial alone and need the help of friends and scary because I feel so vulnerable to have others see me “in all my glory”.  But what is funny about that, is that is humbling as well, to know that I am still loved despite my shortcomings, wow!  This has been a real lesson in love.   Despite what we have done or what our weaknesses might be our Savior loves us and is willing to help us.  How eternally grateful I am for him and for such selfless and caring friends.  Thank you to all who have given of your time and prayers and thoughts and service.  It is in you I find strength and through my Savior.    I truly appreciate all that has been done on my behalf.  You all are so kind and I know the Lord will bless you for your kindness and generosity.  I treasure your friendship and love.

4 comments:

Emily said...

Charity, You deserve all the service that you have received. You are such an amazing person with more faith and strength than you realize. I feel blessed to be your friend. Thank you for allowing your friends to serve you yesterday even when it was hard for you. Nobody judged you because none of us are perfect. Love you.

The 4 Nelsons said...

Charity, I hope you realize what an inspirational person you are to those around you. I have always admired your strength and faith, and as I get to know you more that admiration only grows. I am so grateful that you are willing to share your reflections and your testimony.

Chrissy Beach said...

Charity you are such a sweet woman. I hope you know how treasured you are. I am continually in awe over your ability to overcome your adversity. I am glad to be able to help you anytime you in whatever way possible. Truly you have so much on your shoulders don't worry about letting us be there for you at this time. I wish we could do more and make all of this better for you:). Don't worry about your home, I think mine would be way worse if I was going through what you are. Just ask if you need anything.... I know its hard but we really don't mind!!:)

Kalyne Utter said...

Charity: I am so sorry you have to endure this trial. There will be blessings that come from this that aren't visible or even imaginable at this point. Trust in the Lord, talk him frequently. He is probably the only one who will get you through this. However, your dad has been there, done that and understands more than you know. Give him a try.